Treading Water

I am writing this morning to purge myself of some negative, self-pitying thoughts that are consuming me. I will spill them out onto this page and be done with them.....

Tom and I made several bad decisions a few years ago. It started with listening whole-heartily to the wrong people and not taking the smart advice of the right people. That' is when we stepped into owing/operating Tapas restaurant. From there, we made a further disastrous decision by leasing-to-own and eventually buying our current house. We have since sold the restaurant, but in order to do this - we lumped all the debt and, essentially, all the bad decisions into this house. So now we are selling the house.

All of this is important because I have been told and believed for a long time that Tom and I just had bad luck. If anything could go wrong - it would. So Last night, just when I was starting to feel really good about the direction we were heading with our future financially, our bathtub leaked and flooded our entire laundry room downstairs. Most likely the ceiling and the bathtub will have to be replaced. Financial emergency - Again. But I am writing this to remind myself of a few things: 1) God is in control now. For the first time ever I have turned my finances over to him and I know he will take care of me. 2) This directly relates to decisions we made 5 years ago. Tom and I are still dealing with those same rash decisions that we made so long ago.
However, this is a light at the end of this long tunnel. I truly believe that with the sale of the house (once we repair it) that we will be saying goodbye to our old way of decision making for good. We will literally close the door on a chapter in our lives that brought upon much stress and anguish -which was entirely self-inflicted. I am so ready to start this life that it's killing me. But again, I remind myself that God is in charge, and learning patience is part of the process. So I will continue to plug along and tread water until his plan for us is revealed.....but I can still pray that it comes sooner rather than later!